Hardened Path of my Heart

This is a poem I wrote after much consideration and many conversations with friends. It is kind of about all of us in one way or another.. Anyway, thoughts I attempted to stuff into the form of poem, hope you enjoy.

I've been stuck in my head

Deep in there is pride

Deep in there that is all that I find

My sin has left me dead

The lies I am fed

By the beast who binds

He who is not kind

I, in turn, fed him and bled

For if you feed the beast

The liar and cheater

He will come back to feast

And soon truth is no longer leader

I've been stuck in my head

But that is not where my Father wants me

There it is all about me, so there I flee

And find there no reason to leave my bed

But that is not where my father wants me

If I looked up from the dirt path beneath my feet,

The stone of my heart that has me beat,

The more green grass would I see

Got so caught up in trying to do right

And love God in all the flow

But how do you love one you do not know?

And how do you know one you do not seek in dark and light?

Is each day a choice to step outside yourself?

And seek Him in all that surrounds you?

Recognize His love for you too

Must I give up myself to find myself?

Give me strength not to feed the beast who will return for more

Teach me to look up from the path I walk on

And up to the green growth that grows along

Alongside the hardened path where seed wont grow, and all I live for

Is it possible that I must seek Him elsewhere

Before finding Him in me?

Must I first learn to see?

That my life would reflect you, that is my prayer

Oh, the light He is despite my darkness

What a wonderful thing

That I can depend on Him

I long to praise His goodness