Growing Young

I turned 18 in December.

I never wanted to grow out of childhood. Ever. To little me, getting old meant being cranky and bored and probably way too busy. Most of all too busy to recognize what is beautiful. And good. I was scared to get too caught up in the worries of life that I cant see straight, or see past those things. Because its one thing to recognize the strife in life, but to let it hold you down...

Philippians 4:4-8 is the verse that will forever convince me. I sometimes worry about responsibility and bigger life choices and on and on.. ( kay more than sometimes) But all I need is to look to God and desire Him, because then my desire will align with His will. And His plan is perfect. He will lead me in this life and He doesn't change. Such incredible peace does that bring. He is just so good.

But I realize now, that I don't have to grow up.. This doesn't mean being irresponsible or immature, cause that's all important and good, but thinking about it, the real reason I was scared to grow up was to lose that carefree feeling and eyes that see beauty and a heart that loves what is simply good. Growing has only made me better at all that. Because I knew I never wanted to lose that. And its possible to grow older without such things but I just don't think I could. And I refuse to. So maybe its alright, this whole growing up thing. Because I can hold on to what was so right about childhood.

"Anyone who keeps the ability to see beauty never grows old"-Franz Kafka